Its almost over....

I'm almost a senior. Sort of. You're considered a senior right after you finish junior year, right? Well, I don't want to be a senior. I want to rewind about....16 or so years and just go through everything again. Except ages 13-15. We can skip those. I just don't want to leave everything I know behind. I'm worried I won't be able to make friends, or get a boyfriend, or get a job, or finish college, or pay my bills! I'm going to be so confused on my own. And lonely. That will be the worst part of it all. So yes. Either rewind, or fast forward into a time where I am happy and stable. Also skinny. Yes. I keep hoping that's in my future somewhere. I think I'm going to try a diet this summer where I eat nothing from a package, just vegetables, fruit, and meat. Bread only if I grind up the wheat and make it out of scratch, and bake it outside on a stone in the fire. I will cook the meat on a stick over the flames. Beverages? Ditch water boiled to de-contaminate. Milk, straight from the goat, unpasturized. I will live outside and force myself to travel at least 6 miles a day and build my own shelter. It will be like survivor: Backyard edition. And I will make a friend do it with me. But we can still go inside to the bathroom. No need to be extreme. This post has traveled a bit from its original theme. Thats okay. Im serious about the survivor thing though.